i want you like a drug

i woke up this morning looking like i had been hit by a train. my hair is at least twice its normal volume. it would seem that i forgot to wash my face last night before retreating to my bed. and then i peed an abnormal amount of urine before stumbling down the expanse of hallway that connects my room to the more communal of rooms and lazily put together a breakfast fit for champions.

cereal. with a banana. yum.

yesterday, while at the market, i decided to give SmartStart another try, given that i buy the sort that comes without the various different freezedried berries. that shit is naaaasty. but this morning i realized another problem with the corn puffed bunches: they are just too sweet. way too sweet. by the end of my modest bowl, i was ready to move onto soy sauce or something of the like. i then settled down to my chair by the window nad watched kids bike by, all of which were going to be late for class unless they were heading to the iv lecture halls. sucky for you. well, they'll be late if they have classes on the ugly end of campus. the end where the less attractive individuals reside. the science and engineering individuals. otherwise known as the individuals who will be wealthy later in life. or otherwise known as not the kids who are in art studio, no offense to art studio.

but thena gain, how unattractive are the kids who hide out in that section of campus? i think about this in reference to the rest of the world, not just our little bubblefied area. they really aren't unattractive. in another area of the country, they could be construed as attractive. this school has really scewed my idea of beauty. these people are just too perfect. it's getting to be a little disgusting.

speaking of disgusting, the sexual tension between elaine and cory last night was just horrible. i sat in the living room whole heartedly carrying the conversation on with cory as elaine helplessly persued cory, cory helplessly persued stella, and i helplessly persued a way out of the scene. we just sat there, passing, me listening to the mumbojumbo about how to go about learning chineese from cory, the geo-physicist major turning linguistics nut, while the two other people in the group went about their little world, trying to avoid the elephant in the room, and letting me do the entertaining with a boy i hardly know.

thanks, guy. thanks for making me get to know a boy i steadfastly refuse to like. there is a reason i never wanted to go see aj at his place of residence. his roommate is a freaky freaky boy. and now, because i had to spend two hours talking to him while you two fucked off and giggled, i have risen from "hey rachel *high five* how's it going" to "hey rachel *uncomfortably long hug* how have you been", otherwise known as the place i always wanted to be. oh yay. i am glad i will be at home this weekend so that i don't have to see him again for a long time. i'll just have to celebrate aj's birthday with him when i get back. i'll take him out to some vegitarian joint or something. i know that he will eat that shit, at least.

anyway, i need to start studying. today marks the day where i have only one more day to study for my midterm, otherwise known as "crackdown" day. i can't put it off very much longer. it's going to take me at least 6 hours to memorize the name, date, dynasty, place found, current place of residence of 70 asian artifacts.